b.,
today would be our 10 month anniversary...*cheers* i emailed you today and asked you to get online if you wanted...to spend some time with me. chat, play pool, anything.
you didnt.
its okay. i guess. i just miss you really bad. youre my best friend bobby, and the love of my life, its expected for me to miss you like i do. dontcha know, silly boy?
i picked up the phone earlier and dialed your number, then hung it up before i hit the last one. i couldnt do it. i didnt know what youd say. or if youd be home. i just didnt know.
do you still go to bed with the phone at night?
my brother asked me today when you were coming back again. i told him that we broke up almost a month ago. "oh." he said. "yeah." i said.
"he was really cool."
you see, i wasnt the only one in love with you. my whole family was. and is.
they placed my grammas tombstone on her grave today. ill go there tomorrow to see it, and to visit with her. i wish you were there with me, to hold me when i cry. i know i will. i always do.
anyway. i love you. regardless. and forever.
m.
2:10 a.m. - 2002-10-12
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